“We cannot see our reflection in running water. It is only in still water that we can see.” – Taoist Proverb
In 2015, I devoted my energy to making this site, Trini Trent TV and the Trini Trent Radio podcast successful. As such, I attached myself to every social media platform I knew, followed every trending topic and made blogging my life.
I was driven my metrics – subscribers, unique visitors, viewers, listeners, likes, shares and retweets. Additionally, the comment section became both my favourite and most hated place on the web.
Regardless of how I felt, I was plugged in.
However, that wasn’t what I really wanted to do with my life. In fact, I had no idea what that was, who I was or where I was heading.
Well, the Universe decided it was time for me to start thinking more deeply, and the only way to do that was to grind everything to a shocking yet enlightening halt.
It started with my job. After a great start with a website that focused on highlighting issues affecting the African-American community, things quickly unravelled. In short, I quit.
Yet, as with everything in my life, I powered through. At least until I burned out.
The start of 2016 saw me leave New York City, return to Trinidad and Tobago, and collapse.
Anxiety and culture shock dampened my drive to find a job. Moreover, as my traffic surged, I began to fear what that meant instead of enjoying the results of my work.
It was all a blessing in disguise.
I have spent the last year on an incredibly journey. For the first time in my life, I have asked myself the questions: Who am I? What do I want? How can I serve others?
Meditation has replaced scrolling social media for the latest trending topic. Yoga has helped me understand my mind, body and Spirit like never before.
Furthermore, as Terry Torro suggested in the “10 Steps to Happiness” episode of Trini Trent Radio, I started writing my thoughts in a journal instead of in status updates online.
It took me a long time to decide if I wanted to return to blogging, and how to do so in a healthy way that does not spur my anxiety. Seriously, I used to get panic attacks just thinking of visiting my own blog.
That time gave me the space to look inward and express myself without judgement. Indeed, I realised I have a real knack for multimedia editing as I watched YouTube tutorials to redesign my logo, and experimented with different editing software.
Read more about the concept for my new artwork on the About page.
Now, I’m back on the web with fresh eyes and fresh energy. My time away has allowed me to see that my previous approach to blogging was not true to me. Rather, I told myself that criticising the happenings in pop culture was what I was meant to do because it paid the bills and got me the attention I enjoyed.
This time, I’m doing things differently. I want to use my experience to help others and truly connect with people. The opinions, rants and criticisms are out the door.
Also, I won’t be as involved with social media as I was in the past because it is not healthy for me. So, if you send me a message and I don’t respond in 24 hours, please don’t assume I’m ignoring you. Rather, know I’m just not online often. I peep through the keyhole when I’m ready and I keep it moving back to the real world.
On this site, there are several new and reworked sections:
- Pop Culture – This is where I will talk about how themes in music, television and film can help us grow.
- Wellness – In this section, I will discuss different ways to lead a happier and healthier lifestyle. These will be things I’ve personally tried or have interest in using.
- Gender and Sexuality – Many of the discussions Terry Torro and I hosted on Trini Trent Radio will be expanded here. Also, I will share insight into my experiences with black masculinity and sexuality.
- Dating and Relationships – Finding love in the digital age can be challenging, especially with the many apps and social media available. This is where we can help each other navigate those “sup” messages and build healthy relationships.
- West Indian – West Indian people have unique issues that are often overlooked, so I’ve added this section to help us come together and even connect with other communities around the world.
- Trini Trent Media – If you’re a fan of Trini Trent TV and Trini Trent Radio, this is where all the episodes will be listed. However, many of them will be connected to articles written elsewhere on the site so follow the links.
To further expand these sections, I’m opening the door for contributors. If you have an idea for an article for the site, send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org with summary and quick breakdown of the piece.
Furthermore, I will do callouts for submissions. For example, if I’m seeking articles or testimonials from women who overcame discrimination at work, I will post the exact information I’m looking for and may even conduct interviews with interested persons.
Read more about how to reach me on the Contact page.
I’m grateful for every person who has emailed, direct messaged, tweeted or called me during the past few months. Your words of encouragement have resonated with me deeply as I pondered the next best step for me.
To those of you have revisited the Trini Trent Radio podcast, watched past episodes of Trini Trent TV and read articles in the site archive during my absence, thank you. That let me know that my work means something to people, even when I didn’t believe in it myself.
I’m still working on me and figuring out my life. Thus, I’m not fully committed to a publishing schedule or to meeting any demands. Instead, I’m doing what feels right.
As P90X creator, Tony Horton, says, I’m going to do my best and forget the rest!